Can't Help Falling in Love with You

BB... heh this song says it all hmm one day just one day I hope you will feel this way too. =)

Wise men say only fools rush in 

but I can't help falling in love with you 

Shall I stay 

would it be a sin 

If I can't help falling in love with you 

Like a river flows surely to the sea 

Darling so it goes 

some things are meant to be 

take my hand, take my whole life too 

for I can't help falling in love with you 

Like a river flows surely to the sea 

Darling so it goes 

some things are meant to be 

take my hand, take my whole life too 

for I can't help falling in love with you 

for I can't help falling in love with you

Appreciated

It really feels nice to be appreciated and loved by you. Hmm sending you to RP yesterday was a happy day for me coz we havent seen each other since sunday. You were real nice and sweet. 

Guess its my fault to assume i could do it on Sat again? Hmm its not like i am not sad that you are going out with him. But yea guess i have no right to say anything. Hope u message me after you come back from Zouk. 

Cant help but think about us again today. Its tirng and I still havent finished studying. I hope what Jas said about you is exactly whats happening. I hope you are giving me a change. I will wait. I really mean it. And yes I have been waiting for you for a number of nights and it means alot to me if you called or messaged me. No point lying to the blog right? Haha

You and Me

Sometimes i wonder if you are testing me or its just that you really don't care at all. It just seems that i am not important at all compared to everything else that you need to do. Do you come to me as a last resort? Because no matter what you know i will always be there? You know waiting ain't such a fun think after all. Really admire those who wait for gals for years for the gals to fall in love with them. Maybe you have lost interest in me and already find me boring. *Shrugs* I really hope not. Really just need some attention sometimes also... tell me you do care and you do think about me and make me feel more important. I know i sound like a freaking wuss here but ya i cant help it coz i am in love? 

Just hope you could call me like after your dance before you sleep, chat a little before you do work msg me a good morning of some sort. It would be real nice. Sorry that I am still irritating you but i am trying and its been much better than before right? 

Its real nice to talk to you and to go out with you and it still is. Really missed all the times we have spent together. I guess its a price to pay for being too happy... since things are usually relative... being super happy means i gotta suffer equally after that and i guess this is the time that i am suffering ba. Not a bad thing, it keeps me going at times. Makes me look forward for better times, but it also bring much disappointment. Can't help it. 

Really need to catch up on alot of work too. I really don't know what will happen to you and me in the future. But i really hope you and me will become us someday. I really miss you bb but all i can do now is hope and pray.

Missing you

Dinner with you on Sunday was refreshing and I was glad that you are not mood swinging by then. Like i said, its not that i want to be wishy washy but its so hard to leave you sometimes not knowing when we are going to meet again. I never understood this kinda feeling until now. Haha now all the ancient poems start making sense to me and i finally understand the pain and sadness in the absence of a loved one. Nonetheless, I really am happy on Sunday. Looks like Sundays are days that I can spend time and be happy with you i guess. I hope this continues.

On the other hand, Mondays seems to be the worst days of the week for you and me. Your internet is crank and you don't really reply my messages. I understand that you are busy but I am too. I really hope we can just chat like for a few minutes at night before you sleep wish you good night and hear your voice. I wish that I can wake up in the morning to your sms or at least reply to me when you wake up. Might not be important to you but it does make my day for me to receive them. 

Theres so much work and i am so tired. Bb i really miss you and ya.. i need you.. but i cant tell you that now. I only can wish upon this silly blog and hope that one day... maybe just one fine day... you will understand how i feel and feel the same way too. 

Mood Swings

Sometimes i don't really understand why we can be happy one minute then you will be pissed at me and chase me away the next minute. These mood swings thingy are rather bewildering. Had a great night talking to ya and stuff and I am very happy to be able to spend some time with you. I really don't think you like me yet. Well I guess if this is to carry on I will have to get used to it. No need to worry about you getting pissed anymore because you always do. I think I finally know what you want for now. Hope it will change ba. Not that this situation isn't good but I really hope that you will be my true love bb. Shrugs. Lets see how things goes ba. I guess I will be able to live with you mood swings soon. 

Its not easy

Hmm after watching Benjamin Button with you I have the urge to blog what happened to us down. Hopefully one day I can show it to you when we are together. Maybe you will tell me what you were thinking then. 

We haven't been on many dates, in fact I remember all of them. Our first was dinner at Clementi, then to watch twilight and then redcliff marathon. Following that we went to the reservoir and spent time at the Marina New Yr Celebration thing. We had a talk in West Coast and in Arts and I met you in Marina Sq due to your cancelled photoshoot and we went to my hall production after that. Though we didn't spend Valentines day together, I had a great time on the 15th. Was late picking you up and I felt real bad. Had the honour to bring you and Smokie to walk around East Coast and the walk arounf Ikea was great too. 

Ok fine maybe we did do quite some stuff in the past 2 months. But spending time with you is just great despite your attempts to irritate me and demean me. I really appreciate you taking time off your busy schedule. SOmetimes I really ttm and felt we will be together soon. It just feels so right to me. Apparently you do not share the same sentiments. I really feel bad for pressuring you at this time but sometimes I just find it hard to resist this urge to see you. I really don't want to lose you bb. But sometimes I feel that I already am and you are just going out with me so that I won't feel sad and you don't feel bad. 

Last night you did not msg me call me nor chat on msn with me. I did not msg ya good night too. Today I msged you good morning. I know we have agreed to be just friends. It hurts and it scares me. I really want to be happy like before and not be suffering for love like now. But i guess its inevitable and i got myself into this situation. 

I miss you BB i really do. More than you can imagine. But if this is what you want, if this is what is good for you and me and if this if for the better in the future, I will still force myself to do it. I hope I just get some reassurance now and then and I will be fine. Jas said wad we did was good I hope shes right. I hope we are right and I hope I can see you soon.